Summer update
A month has passed. I have promised to make a decision about the blog and I like to keep promises. I’ve been thinking what and how to do. It is very tempting to throw everything to the bin and start from scratch “the right way”. That’s not how life works.
There is no reason to hide the past. That’s a part of the history. Throwing parts away doesn’t always make it better. It makes it shorter, less unique. Probably even boring.
During last month I learned a lot about my reality, mindset, environment. Feeling anger, feeling sad, and sometimes unexpectedly happy. Because the path I have went wasn’t short. Wasn’t easy. Yet here I am. Keep walking. And it finally feels being mine. This gives the power and control. At the same time - I feel like I stop resisting. Because things aren’t going the way I’ve imagined.
They never did. And I thought I have to change myself, my behavior. And I definitely should. I should keep walking, showing up and building. Anything, that makes me happier and fulfilled.
The darker days are still here. When fear comes asking “what if it all fails?”. I learned the right answer. Everything will end. Failure and success. Days I’m sick and days I’m healthy. Nothing is granted, except the end. And nobody knows when it is. And should not know that. And that’s the beauty of life.
And the blog? It’s staying. At least 2 people need it. I, myself, am one of these. Sometimes I need to dump my observations. On the other side - I’ll experimenting a lot with AI-related things, and a few paragraphs aren’t enough to share it.
By the way all the professional content is available under https://elilap.dev/blog. This helps me to avoid maintaining 2 CMS’s, at the same time having a dedicated place where professional content can be easily accessible.
Also some posts includes disclaimers and “ai-augmented” tags to explicitly indicate AI processed content. That’s the way to keep balance between not posting AI content and actually using AI for re-shaping content. Sometimes I don’t want to spend 2 hours to re-arrange my thoughts expressed in the PM yet I consider these being valuable.
