I started this blog following an impulse. And during the last few years it helped me to meet myself. I was sharing some useful content, but mostly - personal thoughts and experience. Starting somewhere far away, meeting a small boy that was abandoned for a long time. He’s still here, but is not afraid of talking about what matters publicly. Note: filters still applies, as not everything is shareable.

For all this time I was hoping this blog may help someone. And it was justifying effort for a long time. If at least one person will find it reasonable and helpful - it all makes sense. Today I realized there is somebody, who gain a lot. It’s me.

If there is anything else I may say: it was absolutely worth starting. English isn’t my native, it’s limiting me. And it motivates me to learn and figure out better ways to express my thoughts in English. Yet I have discovered the full power of my journey recently.

Once I switched to my native language (and I am natively bilingual) and used the self-discovery skill I created an amazing story. A story, that was triggered by visiting my school. And that event triggered a cluster of emotions and memories. At the end I was surprised with my abilities to capture it and express. It was something personal, about me and my feeling and something that I was finally proud of posting.

If you are considering whether it is wroth to start writing - yes, it is. Don’t start big. Don’t limit yourself. Keep the basic filters for safety & security of your life and start sharing. Ugly, long, inaccurate. Be you.

One last thing: it’s May 4th today. I have noticed most of the traffic is generating a very short, few seconds long sessions. As I am considering my self-discovery and self-experiment journey is getting to an end I would like to know whether it makes sense to keep this loose blog alive.

If you’re a human and you’re following my journey - please let me know using any channel that’s convenient for you: https://elilap.dev/contact. In a month on June 4th I will make a final decision whether to close or repurpose this platform. There is a chance counter will stop at this point: it’s 99th post.