On October 13th I have posted my first post in the series of 56 posts that I scheduled to post before the year ends. This number is the way I can hit a 100 published posts by the end of this year.
Where I am now? I am approaching a number of 70 posted in total on this blog. Including current post it gives me a total of 24 posts out of 56 posts. Here are my reason, what I have learned so far and how am I going to approach it, despite I am slightly off the track.
The idea
The idea came to my mind suddenly, when I posted one of those posts in October and it was a small series of posts. I felt like this is something that not only matters. But achieving this magical number of 100 is something I can achieve. I don’t need permission, I don’t need a lucky chance. I can achieve it with consistency.
Despite I have published a few posts about consistency here, I decided to write this one as well. Because things are often simpler than we think. Sometimes we need to put a small portion of our energy to keep it floating. To prevent it from being digest by entropy. What is it? Anything. Showing up works much better than many of us thinks. Probably, we’ve been spoiled with early and easy achievements and got used to it. Or maybe social mechanisms were involved and taught us this negative pattern.
It does not matter too much why it happened this way. What matters is how to teach ourselves to do better. I’m glad I started this own challenge. It brings joy, I haven’t had a second thought before posting it. But once posted I decided I am serious about the goal. And even I’m getting tight on the schedule - that’s still doable. And nobody prohibits to write it in advance and schedule delayed publishing. It’s about determination instead of looking for excuses.
The realization
In the beginning I wrote a few articles in a row. It was super easy. Ideas were emerging and growing like and endless tree. I can write about so many things from so many perspectives. How do I choose?
This chapter of my journey is about searching the value. In reality it is even simpler - how to make the right choice? What should I put a bet on? And I was doing that wrong for the most of my live. I was rarely making a choice for myself. I must be, I have to, they’ll get upset... Who cares when I’m upset? A few people. Sometimes. And this is fine. It’s right. The only people who must not make me upset is me. And this is the only right approach.
This realization came to me after a few weeks, when I felt how easy it is to make decision for myself. What do I want to write about? What matters to me? What helped me? And this is when ideas started to connect again. I managed to connect multiple areas and I got insights. Not about the world, how it is built. About myself - what matters to me.
It gave me a new perspective on setting goals and how I feel about it. Goals feel like limits and presure at the same time. The best things happens, when I follow my path. Choosing the path is the right thing. Setting goals - matters for measuring the progress. These aren’t needed to keep moving.
The outcome
While sometime I could barely choose and was eager to get in front of my gadget to start typing - the other days, like today, my mind refused to stop on a single idea. It feels noisy and clumsy. Yet here I am writing quite a good article. It’s not the worst, not the best. It just appears from nowhere.
This would not be possible without me proving my brain it is possible. Even it feels hard. Even it feels impossible. Even it feels like there are no ideas. High distortion and lack of focus doesn’t mean there are no objects. It means lens isn’t set correctly.
Writing is great. It is not just the way to reflect on our thoughts aka perception of the world. It’s more than sharing information. First of all it is the way we can create, build and re-shape an entire world. A word can inspire. A word can destroy. A word is the form of a power.
“With great power comes great responsibility”. And responsible attitude doesn’t mean to limit the power, hide it, destroy. Responsibility means mastering the power to avoid harm. Transforming the power to create.