This is it. Another milestone has been reached. Writing and posting for 6 weeks brings clarity. I have been searching for my values and have found these.

Freedom. Creativity. Act.

That’s been an insight I had 2 days ago during the usual morning walk. I was asking - “who’s Eli Lap and what matters for him?”. The answer came straight and direct.

Freedom

People are arguing for centuries about what freedom is and what it isn’t. When and what is the right way to limit it. Should society be allowed to limit it. Much more nuances is hidden in this discussion.

For me freedom is simple: doing what I love to do. With people I am enjoying doing it. Being able to switch what I do when reality changes. Ability to say “Hi” to new people and “Bye” to those I’m misaligned.

Freedom from society in my head. Freedom from expectations. Freedom from manipulations.

The freedom that I have built in last 3 years.

Creativity

When there is a wide freedom of choice and endless options to choose - being limited with known options and solutions is safe option. It is also the most boring thing.

Creativity means discovery. Trying, failing, trying, trying and finally getting the results. This is the way out of boring routine, and also that’s the way of not getting stale beside the life.

Creativity is the way of connecting potential, dreams with the reality.

Act

Oh this one is my favorite. So many ideas died without even being born. So many people passed without even trying to live the real life. So many plans died as a to-do list on the paper or the moment “end call” was pressed.

All these examples have one thing in common. Execution was missing. And I know myself well - despite of being known for achieving goal. I know there were so much more good things that could have been born with my name on it.

The beautiful part is that these ideas are often implemented by others, so ideas are never lost. But I’m not the one to care about the idea. It’s the life that was lacking meaning.

Freedom. Creativity. Act.

This combo feels like a complete navigator. Using freedom to avoid getting locked, using creativity to explore and test the universe. And act to execute all these.

It feels almost like me. Perfectionist in me is saying: it’s not me, it’s who I want to be. But that’s not true. It’s me.