2 months ago I saw „43” on a counter of my total posts published in this blog. At the same day I published a post where I decided to go for the 100 published posts by the end of the year. At that point I saw it’s a bit too much, yet I decided to do so. I saw I have to write a post every day and can skip some of the weekends to get 56 more posts.

Now it’s December 22, one week has left. And this is my 85th post in total. I miss 2 weeks in my tempo to finish this challenge. And I’m taking the pause with it. In my previous post I have made a conclusion out of this lesson. Not every goal is meant to be achieved.

Not all goals are meant to be achieved

Setting and achieving goals became a virus of the beginning of the 21st century. Western civilization became obsessed with setting, achieving, helping to achieve, consulting and failing at achieving of our goals. In general methodology is good enough and helps with one of the biggest challenge of modern life: keeping

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I was writing a lot. At lest 3-4 posts a week. In 2 months I have posted as much as in the past 2 years. I kept writing about the life, the perceptions and experience, the big lesson, the philosophical part. Until on one day I figured out I have nothing to write about. I have said what I wanted to say, I have thought about everything that was disturbing me.

At that point I started to write about solo-journey. It helped me to determine how short I have gone in that direction. How many things are not exactly how I expect these to be. I don’t have much to say on many vital topics, because I lack such experience. While I thought I was going that way - I was not. Because following the path means to solve problems. Not building plans how to solve these. No the best discovery, yet I had to accept it.

And that thing I’ve recently shared about plans for the December. There are plenty of activities and goals. What to do, what to finish, what to publish. And these are great goals. But there were no goals, that would make this month special for me. There were no place for rest, for thinking, for spending time with my family. And adding these to the list aren’t free. It means I have to re-prioritize. I have to accept limitations of my brain and body.

And this is the last lesson of 2025. When I got sick in the beginning of the December - I was feeling bad. Not because of the headache or higher body temperature. On the second day I understood. Because my spirit was hungry for more, must spirit wanted and could more. But my body was failing. It was temporarily weak and required rest. And I refused accepting this. As soon as I acknowledged and did that - I started to recovery fast. Because I got my body what it needed.

The same happens now. I need a while of rest. Doing less and being more. Without a rush. Even I have to fail a goal publicly and my ego doesn’t feel proud of it. Even I’m afraid it might affect my motivation and further goals and I perceive myself as looser. That was a great trip. 2 years in 2 months is a great result. Doubling amount of articles and switching the topic - both achievements are worth enough to be proud of myself.

And goals... I will get that „100” number next year. Without hurry and rush. But with joy and happiness. Keeping the growth, keeping the work. Step by step.